I ovulated! We-Hew! Now the really crappy waiting part begins. We were very busy this weekend what with all the friends, family activities, and the people in town. Not to mention we had to do cooking, yard work, and the mattress mambo... It was hard to keep up with all of it, and my head is still spinning. It was fun, and I guess that is all one could ask for. Oh yea, and a positive pregnancy test in about a week, and a happy and healthy 9 months. Yea, those too please!
I am unbelievably worn out from the weekend, and only wish to read my books in peace. But I told myself I would clean the floors tonight. I must do at least that. I will try my hardest to accomplish one cleaning task a day. Hopefully my strategy will work. That, and I need to cook at home more. I have been pretty lax about it, and it is showing on my waist line.
I am trying not to obsess over possibly being pregnant right now. Lord knows I want to call all of my girlfriends right now and speculate with them. But I refrain. I need to keep my emotions clamped down. Because I know 4 days past ovulation will give me nothing but a negative test. Even if I did get a positive right now, by some miracle, I have a great chance of having a chemical pregnancy. Why would I want to put myself on that high, just to crash through the floor? I don't, and I won't. I will wait. Impatiently of course.
But in the back of my mind, I am chanting "This is it! THIS IS IT!" I guess because of the Clomid, the OPK's, and the PreSeed, I am almost expecting the results to fall in my favor. But everyone knows Mother Nature has plans that are not my own. But I am still thinking of creative ways to tell my parents, my sister, and my husband. But I will think of some brilliant idea that will go out the window the minute I see them because lord knows I will be a bundle of nerves, and excitement. I will be crying alot.
I have also been thinking about how to announce it to the rest of the world, and who will get the news first beyond my husband and I. My sister, sister in law, both mothers, and of course my dad. My best friend, his best friend. Various cousins and friends... Oh my. Well I believe I may want to be selfish for a couple of days. I want to absorb it, and keep it to myself, to enjoy. Of course Steve might ask whats up when I refuse to smoke. I am pretty sure that once I see that positive test in my hands, I will go into emotional over load and my need to calm myself. Or I will lose my mind and run out and buy a crib and all the stuff to decorate a baby's room! Gah! The craziness I see myself doing is endless.
I just need to calm myself, and not get my hopes too high. That is pretty darn tough, but I think I can manage it. I just need to distract my self. Maybe if I plan it right, I will have a very clean house by the time I get to testing day! My house sure could use it!
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